"Start Again"

Hey All!

As you know, I am the lead singer/guitarist of Rightfully So (www.rightfullyso.webs.com) check it out. I have been working on a song for the past few months. I believe it's been for the past 5 or 6 months. Well here it is! Check it out let me know what you think! The song is entitled "Start Again"


Everyday I wake up
Feeling lost and hopeless
Everyday Is a struggle
To find what I've been working for

Well now it's time
For a new beginning

Cuz sometimes / You just need
To start all over again
And sometimes / You just decide
It's time to live for something better
And when you're at the bottom and can't go any lower
And You're drowning can't get up for air
You just pick yourself back up
And start all over again

Everyday / I feel
So fucking depressed
Everyday / It gets harder
To make it through some way

But now I'm going
To move towards something more

Cuz sometimes / You just have to
get yourself back up
And sometimes / It's hard to
live the life you want
But you wake up from this shitty dream
and realize this is not for me
And you change all you ever knew
and start all over again

A newer life
on a newer page
you take the shit and
throw it all away
Time to live out all your dreams

Cuz sometimes / You just need
To start all over again
And sometimes / You just decide
It's time to
live for something better
And when you're at the bottom and can't go any lower
And You're drowning can't get up for air
Just pick yourself up
And start all over again



This song will not be ready for concert play by Friday. But, you all need to come to St Pius Catholic Church for our DJ Dance Night/Rightfully So performance! We have a lot of exciting things planned for the evening, some awesome covers prepared, and of course a few originals (all age appropriate). All the proceeds will benefit Children's Hospital! Only $10.00 for Adults and $5.00 for Children! We are all very excited for it!!

Here is the info Rightfully So/Dance Night!!

As always thanks for the support everyone hope you ejoyed the new song! :)

-JG

All I Want For Christmas Is You

I know it isn't Christmas yet, but I felt like uploading a video so hope you all enjoy! :)

Thinking about doing something new . . . .

Here's the update!

I'ts been awhile since I've last blogged. Mainly because of work and sleep. Been doing a lot of both. And this is something to think about just in time for the Halloween season :). Here's the update, back in high school, I used to write short stories. They were mainly horror stories. Both illustrative and detailed. I've been thinking about going back to that and possibly writing a full short story book. Possibly publish it? I don't know how much that costs, the details in getting it published, or the steps you must take to do so, but it has been on my mind for awhile. So I think the next coming months that's where I'll be and what I'll be doing. I haven't picked up my guitar in awhile except for moments here and there. Haven't touched my bass, keyboard, or drums in so long I can't even remember. So, I think I might turn my minds towards the creative side once again, but for writing stories. I am not saying I give up on music or am forgetting it all together. But, the fact that I've wanted to sit down and write dark stories tells me I need to find something to motivate me creatively. I've been hitting stone walls in my lyrical content. I've started about a dozen songs and have yet to finish them. I will go back, but I want to take a break from the song writing and turn to story writing which is something I haven't done in about 5 or 6 years. Well that's all for now tell me what you think about it and if you would like to read them. Keep posted for more soon to come!


-JG

Money

Money is an amazing thing . . .

Money makes the world go round. We live in a world where the person who has the most money is looked up to. I'm sure anyone who is rich has worked hard for it and earned it. But, I look at people who barely get by work their asses off and have nothing to show for it. Something's gotta give somewhere. Personally I hate money. It can create jealousy, destroy friendships/relationships, and people kill over it. I wish we could live in a society where money didn't exist. Yes, it keeps order as use for trade. But, I hate that at the end of the day you look in your pocket and think "I wish I had more money". I personally don't have much and it's hard to support myself. I know how hard it is to live based on how much money I have in my pocket. I just wish things would get easier and nobody had to struggle. I'm not a hippie or anything, but it just sucks that people work their whole life just to get by just to earn a piece paper that has nothing backing it. I dunno I'm kinda going on a rant. But, that's what was on my mind, I figured I'd share. Keep posted for more blogs soon to come. Goodnight everyone!


-JG

Hahahaha Servers . . . .

I cam across this job posting from awhile back in some livejournal. If you ever worked as a server or in a restaurant you'd appreciate this . . . . .



Server - Hospitality Expert Needed (Pittsburgh)

Date: 2011-02-21, 4:24PM EST
Reply to: job-svnnu-2226944648@craigslist.org [Errors when replying to ads?]

Do you like gossip, fighting over tables, refusing to separate checks?

Do you enjoy smoking crack, weed or meth in the workplace?

Do you make a point to sleep with every possible coworker, enjoy drinking on the clock ?

Do you want to commit your availability and have all 8 grand parents die within the first month of employment?

Do you want to scam your child support? Work a full pay period then tell the employeer that you cant get paid on the books?

Do you want to stock your kitchen by stealing shrimp and seafood, need silverware or want a few aprons for home? Have you ever stabbed a cooworker?

Do you know everything and not need any instruction?If this sounds like you, send a eMail so I can keep your account on file against future applicants.

Time . . . . .

Time is an amazing thing. In a day there are: 24 hours, 1,440 minutes, 86,400 seconds. I was thinking about this on the way home. In the past 9 years, I've seen so many people come and go out of my life. Looking back on it, I don't know what happened. There are a select few people who I know I will never speak to again. It's crazy to look back on times, and think of how close we were. Now it's gone. It's amazing what can happen over time how you can become so close with someone and than just like you are complete strangers. I hate the fact that the are people out there who in their heart dislike/hate me. I try to be as friendly and as nice as I can. Yeah I'm not perfect I know that, but I know that my friends would agree with me that I will always be there for them thick or thin. I guess sometimes I just look back and wonder what went wrong. But time will do that. Time always goes on and doesn't stop. I take everything one day at a time and I live with no regrets. I have amazing friends and family. I wouldn't trade any of them for the world, and I mean that from the bottom of my heart. As for those people who may or may not ever talk to me again. I can guarantee (depending on the situation) if they came to me tomorrow with a problem or issue I would be there for them. . . . .  I guess time will tell ;) Stay tuned for more looks into my crazy brain!


-JG

People These Days . . . . . . .

Something happened at work tonight. It wasn't really bad, but it made me wonder about people these days. It could have been due to the fact that The Steelers were losing which is just unnecessary and uncalled for. One of my fellow servers was serving a table of a man who was intoxicated. He swore and threatened her, and after he started giving her a hard time. . . .  Than he throws a glass of water all over her. This amazes me. No it wasn't life threatening, and no she wasn't hurt, but honestly that's ridiculous. Now I've talked to cops (I used to wait on them every morning) and they told me that when The Steelers lose that domestics go up. Men actually go home and beat their wives. Seriously?! I see things like this and hear stuff like this all the time! What is the matter with these people?! There are laws and of course morals. What pushes a person so far to randomly beat up, throw water, even kill random people for no reason? Well its beat me, I don't know what goes on in people's heads. I had somebody spit in my face in traffic once because apparently I was driving too slow, or they didn't get to where they wanted to fast enough. I don't know about you, but I think people need to lighten up, treat everyone with respect, and just take it easy. Well that's all for now just something I needed to get off my chest. Stay tuned for more crazy thoughts and stories! :)



-JG

Something That Matters

I have had a lot of ups and downs in my life. I've been through a lot some people know exactly what I'm talking about others have no idea. I just wanted to take the time to thank you all who have been there for me. I won't name any names in particular, but I can say without those true friends I have (you know who you are) and of course my family, I would definitely not be here today. You all keep me sane, happy, and feeling like I matter and I mean something. Those who are my true friends I will always remember you and I will always be there for you and love you. As for my family you also are true friends not just family. I know my brother and sister have had their ups and downs with me, but you are my best friends and I love you dearly. I could talk to you about anything. I just had to get this all out. I thank you and appreciate all you have done for me. I love you all!

-JG

Yeah . . . . .

Something I've been noticing recently . . . . .

I am 23 years old, I've been noticing a lot of stuff in the past year or two. This is not to disrespect anyone in general, just to put that out there . . . . . I hear songs nowadays and see things on the internet or news or on TV. Is it just me or is our generation screwed? I see children maybe 11, 12 years old smoking, drinking, chewing, swearing, out at 2:00AM. This is NOT ok! If i was 11 years old and acting like that I wouldn't last that long at all. My parents weren't strict on me but they brought me up to be a decent person. I have been working since I was 14 years old. I have had a strong work ethic, I became a responsible adult, I don't do drugs, I hardly drink and I have worked my ass off to be the person I am today. But I see kids these days, and I'm thinking in my mind . . . .  "is this honestly who will be representing our country years from now?". It scares me. I have witnessed broken homes and childhoods that were messed up. Most children who come from broken homes or messed up childhoods will not advance. I'm not saying there isn't hope or isn't a chance that things will work out for them. But I see my mom and my dad and how hard they work everyday. It pushes me to better myself as a person and pushes me to get off of my ass and work as hard as I can to advance in life. Yes I may be a server at a restaurant. That is not a career. I know this and I accept that. I never went to college because I wasn't ready to. I will go back and i'm getting there, but I support myself and pay my bills. We all struggle (except those who are given everything) and we are in tough economic times, but judging by what I've seen how our youth is acting, it concerns me. I hope they prove me wrong . . . .


-JG

Religion/Politics

This is my opinion and not meant to upset anyone . . . .

I have been thinking about this one for years. I went to Catholic school for 13 years, I am Christian-Catholic. I was born and raised that way. I may or may not agree or disagree with some of the aspects, but I believe everything happens for a reason and that there is a heaven and a hell. I don't know about the whole purgatory thing that's kind of a toss up. But back to the matter at hand. There's also politics, now I personally believe politics are pretty corrupt and I don't really think most politicians really have that much power. I don't know much about politics and that's a choice I've made for myself. I don't look into it for a reason. It's not that I don't care or think they don't matter, I believe they do to an extent. I'll watch stuff about it here or there, but I think most of it is just black and white. I'm sure there's a lot of grey area that us as a nation aren't informed about. To me that's a good/bad thing. My take on politics and religion is this. I respect your opinions and respect your views, but honestly I think there is a time and place for both. And i also don't like it when people will try to shove their views down your throat. I don't go around trying to tell you what to believe, I expect you to do the same. I've seen debates about politics and religion going back and forth and getting pretty heated, it's unnecessary and stupid. We all have a freedom of speech. I guess you could say people take advantage of that in that way. I try to be the best person I can be everyday. I don't go to church, but I'm the kind of person who would give the shirt off their back to a person in need and anyone who knows me knows that. I think if you have opinions and views that if you express them you should also hear out someone else's . . . .  well that's all for now just something I was thinking about stay tuned for more soon to come!

-JG

Social Interaction, Internet, Technology

This can be kind of a touchy subject so here we go . . . .

I have been thinking a lot about this the past few months. think of these years and why they are significant . . . .
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Give up?
AIM (1994), Myspace(1998), and Facebook (2004) were invented those years. Now I could be wrong, I just looked up the dates real quick on Google, but for the sake of argument let's just assume those are the years. Now try to think about life without these social networks, instant messaging systems, etc. . . . .  It;s kind of hard to even think about life without these (trust me it was for me too) Also, I want to add in the cell/smart phones. Because they kind of tie in to what this whole blog is about.

We live in this world that is ruled by technology. Think about it, Nowadays you buy whether it be a TV, MP3 player, a computer/laptop, a cell phone, a program. The model of the product you are buying pretty much become outdated/obsolete within months maybe even a month. Same goes with cars. We now have cars that park themselves. In this commercial the car claims to have a future proof engine to optimize ANY fuel source. It's absolutely incredible to think about things like that. But, I am kind of getting side-tracked here. I wanna go back to Facebook, Myspace, etc. and Smartphones. Namely, Facebook and Smartphones. It used to be you pick up the home phone call your friend and than meet up somewhere and do whatever, but now everything has been changed. I read an article a few months ago (hell if I could find it now, and I'm sure as hell not searching all over for it) but pretty much summing the article up is this: direct contact is suffering. Keep in mind I am an avid user of Facebook and my Smartphone. And yes I agree I'd be lost without both of those things. They definitely are something useful to have. You get a cell phone and I'm pretty sure anyone and everyone out there now have the capabilities to get on the net on your phone and if you have a smartphone you can do pretty much anything. And, I can also guarantee you that every person with a cell/smartphone has unlimited txt's and probably data packages. Now follow me here.

You're sitting maybe at a restaurant or bar, you're with a friend maybe a group of friends. I can almost bet that at least 1 to half of the party is sitting there either txting or "facebooking" on their phone. This is my point. You have someone sitting right in front of you yet you are losing the direct contact with them because somewhere someone else is getting your attention. And I'm not trying to say that the technological advances this society has been through aren't good or don't attribute to society, they most definitely do. I think it is both good and bad. You can log on to Facebook and either keep in touch with friends you don't usually get to talk to that often, meet entirely new people, and even talk to people from around the world. Which is definitely something that we didn't have 20 years ago. It's so easy to track someone down nowadays that maybe you lost contact with 5-20 years ago. But my point is don't forget who is right in front of you. It takes years to build trust, relationships, and friendships. But it can take minutes to destroy them as well. Keep in mind as much as technology is incredible and lets us keep in touch with friends/loved ones either abroad, not near us, or just acquaintances. We must also show respect for the people who care enough about us to take time out of their day to be right in front of us. That is something I have been thinking about for awhile. And again, I don't think it's a bad thing we have all these advantages as a society, I just think that we should remember if we didn't have all these gadgets and technologies who would still be there. That's all for now! Thanks for checking out my blog!

-JG

ZzzZZzzZZ

Now I have some more info about me . . . .

For years (feels like as long as I can remember), I have been an insomniac. Dictionary.com defines "Insomnia" as: the inability to obtain sufficient sleep, especially when chronic;difficulty in falling or staying asleep; sleeplessness.


If you are like me you understand, but if you are not it sucks. Not all things are bad about insomnia, don't get me wrong it can be useful at times but for the most part (and this is something I don't usually admit) I despise it. I will literally lie down for hours on end and it will be impossible to fall asleep. I will watch TV, listen to music, clean, and lie there and even Melatonin won't help. I started a few nights back taking 2 Melatonin (when only 1 is recommended) and it still hardly affected me. Like I said before the benefits of being an insomniac is that you can get things done. There have been nights I rearranged my apartment and went through old books and boxes and reminisced through old memories just to keep myself occupied when most people are sound asleep. Also, I have written songs late at night, and usually that's about the only time I can write them. Those seem to be the only benefits. But, the thing that sucks the most is that I will be up all hours of the night but my usual bed-time falls between 7:00AM - 9:00AM. Which isn't healthy especially when I start work just a few hours after I fall asleep. I have actually been up for days before and have had instances where I will get 2-3 hours of sleep (at most) for 5 days straight. I don't know maybe it's common I know a few other people who also do this who work overnight shifts but even on my nights off, or after work (tonight a prime example) my body refuses to let me sleep. I hope one day I can finally get a normal sleeping schedule, but for now I guess I just have to deal with it.


-JG

Serving

For all of you who may know me or may not know me, I am a full time restaurant server. Now here's a little inside to what serving is for all of you who have no idea what it's like or have never worked in the restaurant business before. It it running around working your ass off for little to no money. Don't get me wrong, since I have started serving over the past 7 years, i have: purchased a car, moved out twice, supported myself for 4 years, and have able to live on a job where it is cash in hand every night. But i kinda have some stuff I want to get out there. Yes I make money, yes it is addicting, but it is really hard. When you have 5-8 tables all running your ass back and forth and complaining about stuff or thinking just because I don't bring you want you want a minute and a half after you ask me for it, it doesn't mean i don't care. It just means I have about 20 other people I'm waiting on asking for the exact same thing. Take a look around on where you are, you are NOT the only person in the whole restaurant. And I'm not trying to be an asshole and yes I signed up for this, I have been doing this since I was 16 years old, I am now 23. Maybe this is why I'm writing this now. It gets really frustrating when I'm trying as much as possible to cater to your needs. But honestly, if you think the service was good and you had a good meal isn't that why you came out to eat in the first place? Yes, sometimes you may need napkins and it takes a minute, or your refill isn't filled the second you finish it. But take a step back and try to put yourself in my shoes. Restaurant is a tough job, and it takes some skill to work in it. If you think you can do a better job by all means give it a shot. But please leave a tip. Us servers (at least in the greater Pittsburgh area) only make $2.83/hour. What that means is if you don't tip, we can't eat or feed our children or pay our bills, or put gas in our car. Our economy is suffering and in result so are the food service industries, please dig a little deeper into your pocket and throw and extra $1 or $2 on the table it may just be a $1 or $2 to you but it means the world to us. Thank you!

-JG

Seriously?!?!

Ok, well here we go!

For some reason I have been youtubing for about 3 hours now everything from random conspiricies to fake mythological dog-human pictures, 9/11 videos (which by the way some are horrifying and heartbreaking to say the least) but one subject I'd like to touch base on is "Home-Birthing" . . . . Now i get it if you want to bring you child into this world by home-birth that's perfectly fine. But WHY in the world would you record it and throw it on youtube? i mean honestly, wtf?! I can see maybe for home movies to keep as a reference to the day you brought your child into this world but I would not post that on the world for anyone and everyone to see. I dunno maybe it's just me? let me know what you think. But frankly, I thought it was incredibly disturbing to see some random woman pushing a child out of her vagina and than seeing 100's of other related videos of woman also thinking it was a good idea to post the birth of their children on the internet. . . .  Well that's all for now I'm sure I'll think of something else crazy or not to post soon enough goodnight bloggers stay kool!

-JG

Hello Everyone!

So this is my first blog!

I'm pretty excited considering I have been interested in blogs for as long as I can remember. I want to start off by saying my name is "Justin Grosse" I have many nicknames: "J-Grosse" "J" "T" "Eww" among many others so call me what you please. I want this blog to be a place where I can tell you everything I'm thinking about at the time I wrote it. Think of it as a glimpse of what goes on in my head. And trust me alot of stuff goes on up there and half the time I don't know what going on. So i figure might as well share it with the rest of the world! I look forward to blogging as much as possible and hopefully starting to get some followers! See you around!

-JG